Kaixo (hello in Basque) Illuminators!!!! so its another day of henna – moods and another revelation…
i see your shine today everyone! so at the last minute last nite i decided to henna my hair. was supposed to have done it a few days ago but just wasn’t in the mood. now as most of you know i take my henna rituals really seriously so i don’t henna when my mood isn’t so much.
i like to use my henna application days for spiritual reflection, self enlightenment, etc. tho it was this application that i had planned to document and share with you on my youtube vlog. but again, i just wasn’t in the mood. if you haven’t noticed my mood has been getting in the way of quite a bit this week and it was last nite during my henna ritual that i realized it.
that’s why i LOVE when i henna! it always sheds light on another of my soft spots that need work or clarity. anyway, so let me share a bit more about these moods of mine that plagued my week. they’ve been “raising sand” as my grandmother used to say LOL!
for starters, my kids have been looking at me like i’ve been invaded by body snatchers. my man keeps asking if there is a problem and if i need a moment, all the while still asking what i plan to cook for dinner LOL! oh yeah, and the dog…. well he hasn’t really had much to say about the situation because if he barks the wrong way he gets “the look” LOL!!! texts aren’t really getting answered. phone conversations are brief. in fact, my mom who just called a while ago said, only after hearing me say “hello,” that she’d call me at another time cause i must be grouchy. LMAO!!!!!!!
so suffice it to say that these moods of mine have really been stirring some things up in my space. but in defense of my moods i must say that i’ve so lovingly nurtured them for the duration of my life, at least since my teen years and to tell you the truth i feel like they’ve been quite loyal to me.
they’ve kept some people at bay, who probably didn’t need to be in my space anyway LOL. they’ve created a space for me to grow into me when i’ve needed. they’ve made me feel better… eventually LOL.
i just don’t get why they’ve gotten such a bad rap. most that know me have attributed them to several external things such as my being a gemini… or my being an artist… or being an only child.. oh yeah or it being “that time of the month” LMAO!!! however, what i realized last nite during this most powerful henna ritual ever is that my moods are me. like all things… i exist as the Law of Polarity thus i too have opposites…
like i told my man, i’m not gonna be all roses all the time and i’d be a bore if i was. that said, you’ll love me just the same and that’s that!!! LOL!!! no, but really… last nite i came to love my moods for everything that they have been, are right now and forever will be. we renewed our vows, honeymooned by twilight and today we are better than ever!!
so from the perspective that i’m able to view my moods from today i concede that i’m not going to let anyone else blame my moods on the day of the month, my artistry, my birthright nor the alignment of any stars or planets. my moods are what continuously align me. they come from within and shape me into the most fabulous spectacle of spirit to ever grace this body!!!
so that’s it. another day of henna – moods and another revelation…
are you like me? one of the people that others call moody? how do you balance your moods out? share in the comments below.
sunflower smooches!
